Sunday, July 17, 2011

3 month Long Roller Coaster Ride (and not the good kind)

In the past 3 months a lot has happened. It was a roller coaster ride that I never want to get on ever again for as long as I live until death and beyond. I typically like roller coaster rides they are like having sex with crazy people. You go up and everything is seemly normal, then weeeeeeeeeeeee you head down screaming in ecstasy (or if you are me screaming in ecstasy while you are on ecstasy).

I got lost in a vision of having sex with a crazy person- now where was I? Oh yes. So... 3 months ago, I learned that the grant that funds my program was on the chopping block (now officially chopped). We lost 2.2 million and I am the only person from that program that can still say she is employed. There is no more program.

I cried.

My favorite playmate moved away.
All of my co-workers lost their jobs.
And (at that time) I could not find any weed.

To make matters worse- I threw myself back into the comforting arms of NB aka RB aka JeffI who I just ended up using and hurting.

And the cowboy really enjoyed being a whipping boy. Sadly, I figured out that I did not like whipping him at all. In fact, I never want to whip a man again for the rest of my life until death and beyond. It just really isn't for me- kind of I can take a whipping but I can't dish it out at all. I was actually disgusted and completely turned off at the request for whippings. The cowboy and I are still friends, he still tries to get me drunk so I can get naked with him- but it is unlikely that it will happen again. I am happy for him though as he got to fly his freak flag a little bit.

Needless to say, it was a pretty fucked up 3 months. For those 3 months, I did not know if I would have a job.I was majorly stressed and took up drinking lots and lots of beer. I think I gained 10 pounds and I blame beer!!

Things are much better now though.
My old playmate and I have reconnected a little bit and we had the opportunity to spend some time together.
I still have a job, same work, different title, more travel, less pay- 8% less- but in this economy I will take it. It is contract work, same as before so in 15 months I may be almost jobless again. But a lot can happen in 15 months.

I am off to clean up tornado debris for a few weeks. I am sure I will have lots of stories to tell after that.


Saturday, July 16, 2011

3 months no post

So much has happened in the past 3 months. Way too much for me to blog about in the next 2 minutes. Update coming soon.

Next post will talk about the men in my life, my visits to the dentists, work, summer, and tornadoes.

But until then.

'eyes wide open'